Once Upon A Long Time Ago




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The pain surging through me
Like an angry bolt of lightning
The aftermath of the rainstorm
Broken trees
Broken hearts
The love, broken
The soul, suffering without love
His love
To carry me thorugh
The rainstorm

Susan felt like she needed to cry again. She felt like someone had shoved a dagger through her heart, much like the famous scene in 'Romeo and Juliet'. Her poetry, sad and depressing, made her already damaged heart feel the same way. She could feel the tears stinging the back of her eyes. She needed to stop crying and get over it. If only she could have the love they shared, once upon a long time ago...

***FLASHBACK***

"Susan, Susan, are you OK?"
*No, I'm not! Leave me alone OK!* Susan felt like yelling out. "Yeah," she lied instead.
"You just don't seem right. Everything OK between you and Carter?"
"There isn't a Carter and I anymore. We're two seperate people."
Susan felt a little bit gulity for being so hostile to Elizabeth. She sure as hell hadn't done anything wrong. All she did was try to be a little bit conerned, and Susan had to go and explode in her face. She could tell Elizabeth was hurt, but she was feeling worse. She needed the love that she had shared with Carter once upon a long time ago...

***END FLASBACK***

Susan started poring out everything to her pillowcase, realizing it was rather stupid because it wasn't going to answer back. She couldn't talk to anybody about what had happened. Nobody cared. All they ever did was tell her to move on and get over it. But they didn't understand. Susan guessed none of them had ever been truly in love and have your steady boyfriend go out and get engaged behind your back.

***FLASHBACK***

"Today's the day," Carter said to Abby.
"What day?"
"The one month anniversary of when I broke up with Susan. I thought she was supposed to be working today."
"She was," Weaver said, crutching in to the lounge. "She called in tears and said she couldn't come in, but she didn't give a reason. Normally, I would've told her to get her ass in here, but she sounded really upset."
John instantly felt terrible. He knew what was wrong with Susan, but he didn't know if he should tell Kerry. He was pretty sure that she would go right out and tell everybody what Carter said, march to Susan's and drag her to County if she had to. So, once again, as usual, Carter kept his mouth shut. He had loved Susan. Once upon a long time ago...

***END FLASHBACK***

If Only You Knew
The soulmate for me
I gave my heart to
For you to rip it out
And leave me there to bleed
Bleed in the blood of failure
Of lost love
Of injured hope
Of the love Iknew
If only you knew what you has done
You'd erase the past
Leave nothing but a mark
Nothing can erase my pain

Susan closed her notebook and weeped again to her pillow.

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Chapter 3


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I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me
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Ever since the news of Carter and Abby's engagement, Susan had become absolutely distraught. Her pillow was now soaked through and through, because she had been crying for several hours. She gently caressed the rose than rested in her hand, and wondered for what felt like the thousandth time, why Carter would ever let her go.....

****FLASHBACK*****

"I'll always love you," he whispered through her hair as he gently caressed her earlobe, slightly brushing the diamond earrings in her ear.

"I'll always love you too," she whispered back, her face pressed into his chest. She knew it was true, she loved him more than anything in the world. She wished, like so many other moments that she spent with Carter, that they could be preserved under glass forever. Never fading away, never dying, never ending. But those feelings ended, once upon a long time ago....

****END FLASHBACK****

Susan delicately played around with the pencil in her hand that had replaced the rose. With so many good moments with Carter, it was hard to believe that he had even broken up with her in the first place. She swore that she would love him until the day that they died, until death do they part, but that part of her life had come to an abrupt stop. But was this the way to deal with it? Bawling her eyes out to her pillow. Susan thought it was time to move on, yet she didn't exactly know how. Finally, she picked up her pencil, made a vow to end this thing with Carter and wrote one last poem about her love with him.

You're Gone

A long time ago
I wished that we
Could stay together till the end of time

But now that I've
Realized
You weren't going to be there for me

I've moved on
Without you
Even though I always see you

Now that you're
With her now
I've realized that my life will go on

Now that you're gone

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There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high
To satisfy me
Cuz the more that I'm
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well, that's life
But I'm sure
There's gotta be more
Than wanting more
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THE END!!!




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