CATEGORY: Romance JC/AL and SL
RATING: PG-13 (For colorful language)
DISCLAIMER: I don't own these characters, yadda...
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I hope you like it and please email me regardless
SUMMARY: Susan works hard to bring Abby and Carter back together. It's what I want to happen in season 10
It was 6:00pm and her shift had ended at five, but she thought if she just kept working she wouldn't have to think about what had happened in the last three weeks. Exhausted and feeling emotionally drained she decided to call it quits and headed towards the lounge. When she got inside she felt light headed and turned towards the big, black, leather couch and laid down on it, thinking about Carter.
"Taking a breather Abby?" Susan asked as she and Pratt poured them a cup of coffee.
"Something like that." Abby said getting up from the couch and went to her locker. After Pratt left and Susan was sitting at the small round table, Abby turned around to face Susan. "Hey Susan," she began.
"Oh never mind." Abby said as she spun her self back around placing her head on her locker door. She could hear Susan getting up from the table and making her way towards her.
"Is something wrong?" she asked. Abby gave a deep sigh and didn't answer for a long time.
"Yes, I mean no, can I spend the night at your place tonight? I need someone to talk to." Abby finally let out.
"Of course you can. You're my best friend; you can always talk to me. My shift ended at five anyways, I was only going to stick around for shift change so I could dump my charts on Carter…"
Carter. The name made Abby feel weird inside as she drowned out whatever else Susan was saying as they both put on their coats to walk out into the cool autumn breeze.
Abby didn't know why she had asked Susan if she could stay, but it would be better than sitting at home alone craving a beer and a cigarette. They had stopped at her place first so that she could pick up a few items. When they were outside Abby's door Susan asked a question that Abby didn't really want to hear.
"Who put all those locks on your door?"
"Oh, after you were…well ya know." Susan said trying to change the subject.
When they had reached Susan's apartment they ate dinner and found themselves stretched out on the couch and parallel chairs. After a while of confusing silence, Abby came over and sat next to Susan, hugging a pillow to her chest.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Susan started.
"I don't know Susan," Abby sighed, "I love him so much but we just have these fucked up problems in our lives making it impossible for us to actually be together, like the chaos theory."
"Chaos Theory?" Susan asked as Abby remembered walking on the beach, Carter holding her hand, as he was trying to explain the theory to her. She also remembered them swimming in the lake afterwards under the setting sun, but then she came back to reality.
"I mean," she started again, "For once my mother is finally sane and then what happens? The Wyzenski family discovers another bipolar family member!" Abby said in a sarcastic tone. "Eric crashes Gamma's funeral and what was I supposed to do? Tie him to a chair and lock him in my apartment? I don't blame Carter for being upset, but when it comes to Eric, I put him first. He's my brother and he feels like a son because I practically raised him too." Abby stood up and started pacing the floor, "I quit smoking, I'm going to AA meetings, I thought I had become a better person, but something always gets in the way…I love him so much." She then collapsed to the floor, her back hitting the front of the sofa.
"I'm not going to say 'I know how you feel' because I don't. But I will tell you this: if you two just talk about it and try to work through your troubles together, I'm sure you will pull through. C'mon Abby, nothing ever gets you down." Susan said with a smile across her face, but that smile quickly faded, "And if you two aren't together in the end, I hope everything works out for the best between the two of you."
Abby gave her a weak smile. "Can I go ahead and take a shower?" she asked.
"Sure, it's down the hall to the left."
Once Abby was in the shower she quickly put out the thought of the morning in which Carter had surprisingly pulled her into the shower with him. She turned the faucet to cold and let the cool water run down her face. She tuned out the world and was soon drowned in her own thoughts as Carter knocked on Susan's door. He gave a heavy sigh when he saw Susan and asked if he could talk. Susan quickly darted her eyes to the bathroom door and started to say no, but her intuition said yes, he needs a friend to talk to. After Susan offered him a jolly rancher, they both sat at the kitchen table. Abby switched the knob from cold to hot, which gave a loud, rusty metal sound. Carter looked up from Susan to the bathroom door asking her if she had company. She pretended not to have heard the sound to see where she could go with the situation at hand.
"What do you want to talk about?" Susan asked even though the answer was an obvious one.
"It's Abby," he began as Abby finished her shower and turned the faucet off when she heard her name. She dried off quietly and quickly put on her pajamas, trying to listen to the conversation. The way he said her name she knew it was Carter. "We've been having some trouble lately and-"
"Wait Carter, does she know your back from Kisangani yet?" Susan interrupted.
"I don't know, maybe. I got back to Chicago around eleven and I went into her apartment. The lights were out so I presumed she was asleep, but I was hoping she was still awake. She was asleep, but I kissed her softly trying not to wake her up and I sat next to her for hours looking at her and thinking what I had done wrong. Then I left."
"Oh, um ok, continue. You two were having problems?"
"Well, like I said before, we were having trouble. With Gamma dying I really needed someone to lean on, but she ran off to her brother instead. I know its not her fault the way her family is and all, but I think," he paused, "I don't want to say prioritize, but to somehow manage her family and her relationships. She doesn't always have to put her life on hold, she can live life with her family and with me or anyone else who comes along…" Abby walked away from the door, mocking Carter under her breath while trying to put her hair into a decent ponytail. All of a sudden she heard the sound of someone jumping up.
"I love her!" he exclaimed as he jumped from his chair, "I love her and I can't stand to live a moment without her! Like you said to me after the sexual harassment class we all had to attend. I love her." He said again sitting back down into his chair. Abby heard this and thought to herself how much she loved him too, but she was convinced that it could never work.
"And she loves you too." Susan started.
"How do you know?" Carter said sounding depressed.
"I know she does," she said squeezing Carter's hand trying to cheer him up, "You two just need to say that to each other and talk it through."
"She won't even talk to me. I missed her voice so much when I was in Matenda, I missed everything about her and-"
"So talk to her. Now." Susan interrupted again.
"Yes now. Go to the bathroom." Carter looked at her, confused. "I'm serious, go to the bathroom." Carter just shook his head and looked at her even more confused knowing that Susan was serious. Abby wasn't ready, she wanted to hide behind the door, and then she wanted to lock it. Carter jumped back as the door suddenly opened when he was about to turn the knob.
He took a quick look at Susan, obviously not seeing Abby in the doorway. Susan had her arms crossed and nodded towards the bathroom door. Carter turned his around back towards the door and was surprised to see Abby holding the door open. All he could think about was how beautiful she looked right now. He wanted to pull her close so that he could just hug her. But he knew that he couldn't and that he shouldn't, for now at least. Abby didn't know why she had opened the door so abruptly right when she had decided to lock it. Something inside of her told her that she needed to confront him. Abby and Carter both just stared at each other, their eyes interlocking.
"Abby." Carter said softly, breaking the awkward silence.
"John." Abby said with her arms crossed, looking down at the floor. Silence followed.
"And I'm Susan," Susan piped in, "Now that we have all stated our names for the record, I think you'll want to sit and talk. Oh and your not leaving this apartment until you do."
"What are you doing here?" Carter demanded as Abby was caught off guard with his sudden forwardness.
"I should be asking the same thing!" She shot back.
"Did I say fight and shout? Nooo, I said sit and talk." Susan emphasized as she grabbed both of their arms and led them to the table.
"What the hell Carter!" Abby yelled, "You didn't talk to me for weeks and then go running off to Africa!"
"The hell with me? The hell with you Abby! You ditched me for your brother when Gamma died-"
"I didn't ditch you!"
"- and you bring him to the funeral!"
"If I didn't go to him, he might have gone missing again!"
"And he crashed the funeral, he ruined the ceremony, he-"
"I already apologized about that, but he just showed up!"
"Excuses, always you have something to say."
"Fuck you Carter! Do you expect me to choose between my family and you?"
"Yes! I did!"
"My mom didn't care for you, either did Gamma! I just wanted to make them happy. But not his time! They wanted me to dump you, to lie to you, but I said no." he paused, "God Abby, I love you too damned much." He let out a heavy sigh, "When I was in Kisangani, one night I see Luka dancing with Gillian. All night I wished that was I dancing with you, me holding you, me making you feel better when you were down and hurt. I wanted to be with you. And with all of the fighting and bombing that was going on, I never knew if I was ever going to see you again. I love you, don't you get that?"
There was another episode of silence until Susan finally spoke up.
"Well Carter," she started, standing up, "that was a real breakthrough. Abby do you have anything to say?" Another silence followed.
"Carter," she spoke softly, "I know I haven't been there for you in the past as much as you were there for me and I respect you for that." She paused, "But when it comes to Eric, I made him a promise that he can always rely and depend on me no matter what and I have not intention of breaking that promise."
"Abby, understand that, its just that we can both help him, together. You don't always have to do it alone." Abby nodded her head slightly.
"And I've noticed every time when things get rough between us, you always seem to back down or run away. You never want to talk about it."
"I don't do it on purpose. Please try to understand this?"
"And in the future, if we are together, I will come and talk to you as you would do the same."
"Can we talk about what happened on the roof?" Abby asked hesitantly.
"Sure." Carter said not really feeling comfortable with Susan sitting between them. Abby and Carter both looked at Susan and she got the message as she mad her way towards her bedroom.
"Why, why did you want to mar-"
"Marry you. It's simple really I love you."
"And I love you too, but why didn't you ask me again that night?"
"I was scared. When I was driving your mom to the airport she started talking to me about Richard and how he wanted you to change and not accept you for you. In a way I thought I was Richard. I mean, you know how I don't like the drinking and the smoking, but I love you nonetheless. And I thought if we did get married and I kept pushing the subject, that you wouldn't want to be with me anymore."
"Let me finish, please." Abby nodded and told him to go on, "So then all of sudden you quit smoking and started to go back to AA meetings and I didn't know what to make of it." He paused.
"You can call it coincidence or happenstance, but I started doing all of that because I wanted to be a better person for me and for you. I had never really had someone like you in my life that has cared so much, so I thought of all the things you have done for me that the least I can do is to quit bad habits."
Carter had moved his chair next to Abby's as Susan watched and listened through the cracked open door. Carter grabbed Abby's hand and held it tight.
"Whatever happens between us, I will always be there for you." He said.
"And me for you with my crazy family behind me." Abby added and both laughed. Carter stood up and held his hand out, smiling. She grabbed his hand as he put the other around her waist pulling her closer to him. Susan stepped out of her room quietly as Abby put her hands around his neck. They both smiled at each other as they leaned in for a kiss.
Carter kissed her as if this was the last time he would ever see her again. All of his emotions and love for her were put into that kiss. Abby kissed him back thinking that this was better than heaven or winning a million dollars. They held each other close for a while, slightly swaying back and forth. Susan couldn't keep to herself any longer as she came into the kitchen clapping.
"All of this is because of me!" Susan said bragging to a fake audience.
"Come here you." Carter said as he pulled Susan in for a group hug.
"So are you two back together I presume?" She asked with as much anticipation as a child staying up to wait for Santa.
"Are we?" Carter asked sincerely.
"Yes." Abby said with her head down smiling and feeling embarrassed in front of Susan. Carter gave her another kiss as they held each other tenderly into the night.
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